Nevermind. Had my third genocide nightmare of the week last night. This hasn't happened since I was a kid. OK SCARY DREAMS YOU CAN STOP NOW THANKS!
This time I was in a big house in the country. Everyone was supposed to go report to downtown and I had a feeling I wouldn't be able to come back to feed the animals. All of my cousins were there, comforting me, offering help, but they all left. I stayed behind and hid with a fictional family. I looked up at the stars. They were so beautiful and intense and stars were falling constantly. The sky was spectacular and in movement. One day a helicopter landed in the front yard. It was the nazi coming to take us away. I tried to steal his helicopter but I had no idea how to fly it safely. Like several of my dreams, I had to befriend the enemy in order not to suffer as much. I tolerated him becoming a sort of lover so he wouldn't kill me, and pretended to like him, even making jokes as if I was comfortable, even though I didn't want to be near him.
I have a lot of dreams where I tolerate an evil lover in order to save my life or gain privilege I can use to later escape. Hmmm.
9:12 a.m. - 2019-04-05