I don't have a whole lot of white guy friends, but the ones I do all are either married to or recently began dating asian women. Every single one of them. Well, that's not entirely true, one of those couples recently broke up. But wow, what a common pairing. It makes me feel weird about the men, since I've heard white men using stereotypes about asian women, like assuming all asian women will cook and clean and be submissive to a man. It's gross, and I hope I'm wrong about them fetishizing asian women. Men really want to exoticize me sometimes, and it is a huge turn off for me. It just makes them look...really stupid.
I made an ancient rice pudding recipe while dancing and now I am enjoying the fruits of my labor. Background music makes everything better. As does good food.
Happy memories:
omg travel! I miss the entire mediterranean, west to the near east and I also wish I was in north africa, maybe morocco... I miss the smell of ancient ruins. I miss the way the sunlight looks. I miss the smells. Orange trees, anise desserts, mopeds, tan beautiful bodies in the near east (I can fetishize my own people, okay)... I just miss it all lately. I also want to go back in time to ancient Sumer and hang out with Enheduanna and go to a temple service to the Goddess Inanna. Is that so much to ask?
Today's affirmation:
I am my own best friend and my own favorite lover
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
being lazy and not doing yoga when I know that just 10 minutes of yoga a day reduces depression by 30%
I am grateful for:
music, candles, incense, favorite foods, my pets who were extra affectionate toward me today
The person I am becoming will experience more:
excitement and positivity
I accomplished:
sleeping, cooking, meditating, journaling
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
do yoga
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
proud that I am still on the right track and surviving this thing (so far)
7:45 p.m. - 2020-06-30