I filtered and muted the recent invasive emotional dumper males. But I'm sure it won't be long before another man does the same. My filtered messages list keeps growing. If this keeps happening I might go ballistic and block every male I know as a preventative measure. It would be nice to be able to use social media to keep in touch with my friends but men really like to barge in uninvited. Of course I could just do what many other wise souls have done and just quit social media. Moving all the women to "close friends only" is a good hack, but I still feel like I live in fear of unwanted surprises in my inbox from dudes. I'm going to take a break from my phone altogether for as long as I can because it's clearly causing me stress and my chronic pain has returned, and I am positive this is the cause because men always are.
Onto bigger and better things, what are we grateful for today? I'm grateful that social media is entirely optional. I'm grateful I have all my basic material needs met. Grateful for waking up feeling rested. Grateful for rain and sun and for this adorable soft cat that follows me around everywhere I go. Grateful I made myself hot corn meal with milk and honey this morning which I never do anymore, but it's high in iron and I didn't want to skip breakfast this morning.
I infused my giant costco honey with star anise, to supplement my saffron tincture for double the antidepressant benefits in my coffee. My morning coffee has become an art form. I even added a little powdered bone broth to it today. Sometimes I add MCT oil too. I'm like that character on parks and rec who cares a little too much about his health, except that I'm not the most physically active person, beyond easy yin yoga and a dance class whenever I'm in the mood to revel at the feeling of moving my hips.
I want to replace some of my internet usage with moving my body more and making more art because I am most at peace when doing these things. Maybe all the herbal antidepressant magic will help me shake my winter inertia. Any time I have a desire to doom scroll I should instead jump up and move my body immediately or put my hands to work doing literally anything else. I think this is a very achievable and worthwhile goal.
10:14 a.m. - 2021-01-25