I put dye in my hair but then fell asleep with it on. Sleep is my superpower. I'm grateful for that, because it's so important to every single aspect of health. It's a little unnerving when I'm around people who never sleep and never relax. It's like trying to talk to a person who is only half present, and not very happy about it.
Our realities are incredible aren't they? Like how right now I'm on my couch, just sitting peacefully, nothing is wrong and I'm safe. Yet the mind could create a tale of fear and suffering if it wanted to, and then I'd be physically here but mentally suffering. I've gotten better at catching myself when I slide into daymares, which aren't reality. Every worry or negative thought is literally just a vision in the mind, and nothing more. No big deal when my mind veers negative -- just come back to presence and whoosh -- all better. Like magic.
Today I'm grateful about the zoom party later, and that I'll have beautifully dyed hair for it. Little pleasures. Spring is a good time of year. If I don't appreciate it now, it'll be gone before I know it. I'm grateful for the beautiful sun. Grateful for the way my plants all get extra leafy and green this time of year. Spring makes them happy too. I just found out both my great grandma and her mother died around my age, so I'm grateful for life.
May I not meet the same early demise!
It's wild how my ancestors had to flee across the globe multiple times in one lifespan, leaving their homeland only to have to leave again. I've stayed relatively rooted compared to them, even though I'm always prepared with an escape route. It's in my blood I guess.
7:53 a.m. - 2021-04-11