I did something right this month because I had almost zero chronic pain. Just the tiniest barely detectable sensitivity before my period, but totally negligible.
I think two things helped:
This month I was consistent in very mild brief daily exercise. I didn't overdo it or underdo it. I did only enough until I felt tired or a little out of breath, then stopped and rested the rest of the day. I listened to my body very carefully. I don't think it matters whether it's yoga or dance or video games, just as long as I move my body, in moderation.
I also ate pretty well. I ate berries almost every day with oats, and ate more greens. And I didn't have much sugar.
There was one evening around ovulation where I felt the subtlest pain beginning to surge but I felt if I stopped and addressed it immediately before it became overwhelming, then maybe I could prevent it from getting worse. Worth a try. So I did a meditation where I placed my hands where it hurts and focused very deeply on showing that part of my body compassion, as if it was a crying baby that I was soothing. I didn't try to mentally force the pain away, I just put a loving hand on it, soothing it, breathing deeply into it, patiently, listening to it with ALL my strength of nurturing. The pain was gone within 30 minutes. Incredible.
I tried that before without success, but I think if I catch it early enough I can will the pain away. I just need to pay attention and not ignore the subtle signs. This gives me hope that I do have the power to heal myself, if I can be very in tune with what my body is trying to tell me. I need to be hypersensitive to my own body's moods, the same way I am with other people's moods.
It's just like when people freak out about something small and totally unrelated to their actual trigger, but what part of them is really hurting?' People act angry when they really are just sad or hurt or scared. I believe my pain is like anger that hasn't been addressed. Inflammation is like irritability. What it needs is compassion. Trying to ignore it, force it into submission, or force it to go away or change, hating it, won't work. I have to let it be what it is first, accept it unconditionally, hold it, have deep compassion for it. I have to hear it out, like a loving parent.
I'm here for you, pain. I love you as you are. I love you. I love you.
I am learning to love myself on a cellular level.
12:37 p.m. - 2021-10-17