I feel much better after talking to his family. I needed details and facts. I learned that he had been to the ER five times for liver issues. Even his family didn't know. So he knew he was dying and said nothing, and committed suicide by continuing to drink. His family made me feel that it isn't my fault. They said he would have been bad for my sobriety, that he was grieving two family members and took it really hard. 42 is just way too young. Hope to see you in dreams, R. I love you.
5:44 p.m. - 2022-10-26