How sick of people to keep telling me that it�s selfish not to have kids, when my offspring would have a 50 percent chance of inheriting mental disease. Anyway, since when is not overpopulating, selfish? (And how does one broach these uncomfortable topics with judgmental Soviet in-laws?) They never make instruction manuals for this stuff.
My maternal side is like a bipolar minefield. All my aunts, my brother, and all my male cousins were diagnosed. Two were institutionalized. One committed suicide, another murdered someone. No joke, my mom is homeless and mentally ill, and I can�t even manage to keep her safe, let alone a child.
Even if I was stupid �unselfish� enough to get pregnant, I think it would be better for the unborn not to experience the pain I�ve watched my family suffer. That gene destroys everything in its path and has no vaccination or cure. So I�m sorry, but I�d rather be called selfish than bring more misery into this world.
I'll take care of myself when I'm old, thankyouverymuch. And when I die, I'll leave not a trace of living dna evidence of my existence. I'll give my final kisses and go willfully extinct. Bada bing bada boom.
To end on a high note, I'll be on a plane in a few hours. Joy! HB and I are pretty stoked about a vacation. I promise to return with pretty stories and an equatorial glow.
Affectionately Yours,
Z
10:50 a.m. - 2008-10-29