He called me a cunt and a whore while drunk. It made me wonder if I am making the same mistake twice. However I did manage to keep him away, only agreeing to speak with him once he was sober. I could stay with him and just plan to avoid him when this happens, as it seems to be one of his unavoidable faults. Or I could try to get rid of him completely and love him for a long time in secret without speaking to him. Whatever happens though, I won't let it get to me the way it once did, and I won't sacrifice friends or successes for him ever again. I probably shouldn't even waste my emotional energy on this at all. Friends don't require this much. And admittedly, I get a lot more done without him around. Perhaps when he starts school, his distance will make my perception clearer. He's an angel most of the time, but I can't afford him. He may be more of a stressor than what he is worth as an ally.
2:38 a.m. - 2013-01-08