my energy and nerves are frayed.
every couple weeks he disappears.
then i have to do the whole process again of anxiety and tears, followed by having to block him because its the only thing that makes him remember he misses me and not to take me for granted.
then as if on cue at least 3 guys and a couple girls will inevitably ask if i have any plans, and i don't, so...
i guess instead of being a week to remember my nana it will be a week of trying not to cry while another person offers to take the absent boy's place.
maybe it will be the last week of suffering like this.
10:23 p.m. - 2015-10-29