I've been talking to a couple girls in the dating way. I seem to be over men, even as friends. Two weekends in a row there were different boys who tried to convince me to let them into my apartment uninvited. I never slept with either of them and one I haven't even seen for 2 years or so. So, the boys are restless. I give it thought, I do. I contemplate whether I want a dick in bed with me but the thought makes me feel tense rather than comforted.
Also, if anyone is reading this, do yourself a favor and never date an alcoholic or addict. It's an enormous waste of energy and drains your positivity and motivation. I've never been so tired, but not having seen the alcoholic for 2 weeks, I'm just beginning to feel like I can think straight and maybe even soon have energy to participate in social activities without feeling numb, disinterested, terrified, or depressed. I'm starting to feel some hope for a single future...and trying my hardest to stay that way, even if it means moving out of the city to the middle of the woods.
1:11 p.m. - 2016-10-17