- i just realized that i sometimes can barely get myself to do things, let alone other people. self reflecting about that.
- i made a list of things that make me happy so i can do more of them. nature tops the list, so boy am i ever in the wrong environment then. i am smack dab in the middle of a crowded city! it's hard because i very much love specific things about urban living. i just wish it had more trees & less noise/people. :D
- that is just one of several ways i'm conflicted with life. so many things are either too much this or not enough that. i'm not satisfied with such extremes. i am goldilocks, except not blonde.
- maybe i've just let my mind become lazy. its human nature for thoughts to veer toward the negative. i don't want to become a grumpy old person. so i'm going to exercise my smile muscle and laugh more, and not just when i'm in public but when i'm completely alone because i should fully enjoy my own company.
- i should do less thinking and more doing!
- i should also be much nicer to myself. i've been good lately but i'm going to be even better about self love. i'm going to let myself go extreme with this one thing. balls out!
1:07 a.m. - 2018-04-26