I haven't written in awhile because I've been productive. I've been 'fighting for my joy' as that cool chick from pussy riot said at the lecture I went to. I vibed with so much of what she said.
I've been dancing, art-ing, and being called to help friends in need so I think I've been doing something right. I have moments of heartbreak but I'm managing very well, much better than usual. I'm actively changing in many small ways that add up to a big picture. I'm reaching out to those I want to work with and giving no attention to those who consistently bring me down. I have a big quote on my desktop that says: "FILL YOUR LIFE WITH THE ENERGY YOU WISH TO ATTRACT." That's been my main goal.
A lot of people close to me have fallen or are falling right now. Some of them are people I've always admired for being stable upright members of the community, and suddenly they're calling on me to soothe their anxieties and hear their problems. My own suffering over the past couple years has granted me the empathy to listen and to simply let them know I'm here if they need me.
I also seem to have a few pursuers, who don't annoy me. I like them for different reasons, but am definitely not ready for sex with anyone. I'm a little bit excited about one of them because I secretly liked him almost 4 years ago. He says he wants to take me on a date and listed the reasons he likes me, and they were intelligent reasons.
Ok well, nice chat, I have to go do other things now. We should catch up like this more often. If you're reading this I hope you're well or on your way there. You can hold my hand, we'll do it together. <3
8:48 p.m. - 2018-05-22