And wouldn't you know it, the year I finally take care of myself well enough to have a non depressing winter....
Two people in my life have gone missing and are probably suicidal. No one can reach them, no word yet on either one. NOT STRESSFUL AT ALL.
Since there's nothing I can really do but wait and hope, I'm just dousing myself in wine and weed and trying really hard not to panic. I really wish people didn't do this. I'd like to just go back to worrying about myself. I'm enough work alone without needing to worry about the stability of others. I can only do so much. But there's no response at all. So. I'll just keep waiting and trying not to stress. I've already lost several people to suicide and death in general throughout life so it's a really fucked up thing for me and brings up a lot of trauma and pain. Nothing I can really do about these people. If they don't want to talk to anyone, I can't make them. I can't make them want to live either.
I'm doing okay though. But there's times I wish I was somewhere far away from all the drama.
7:58 p.m. - 2019-01-07