I dreamed an abusive ex from years ago had been in my room without me knowing, watching my every move. When I found out, he acted like he was stalking me because we had a special connection, and was trying to charm his way back into my heart. Fearing expressing my horror, I spent most of the dream trying to signal to people that I was in danger without him noticing while he stood right beside me, everywhere I went.
I woke up wondering if he stalks my social media, or if he's been lurking nearby.
I also wondered if the dream just represents how that trauma still follows me.
I sure have a lot of nightmares. I don't think it's bad though. It means I'm healing old scars. It's been a long process but I've been feeling the pain, anxiety, and depression diminishing for awhile now. I've grown by facing pain head on and my inner strength has returned. I've nearly come full circle and am ready and eager for the next chapter...
And this time, I have the wisdom of experience on my side.
12:31 p.m. - 2019-04-12