Trying out quitting alcohol and weed, at the suggestion of my therapist, who doesn't realize I never tried weed until a couple years ago, and didn't drink until my 30s, but sure why not. I haven't had weed or alcohol in over a week anyway, and even though that wasn't an intentional choice, I'm cool with quitting on purpose. No change so far, but at least I have a great excuse to tell men who shove drinks in my face.
Pros of quitting weed: saves money, won't have to renew my medical marijuana card, brain cells, books will be my only friends, and i'll drive men away with my lack of sexual desire for them
Cons of quitting weed: will need to suffer chronic pain half the month, potentially dangerous appetite loss, the world will have to endure my pms, anger, and relationship anxiety, and i'll just have to breathe deep when traumas occur. Also, I'll have to go back to being perpetually annoyed because I can't dumb down enough to interact with humans. Also I'll be stressed a lot and my sense of humor will be reduced and I'll go back to being overly serious all the time
Pros of quitting alcohol: everything
Cons of quitting alcohol: social isolation
I'm in a lot of physical pain right now and I don't take any medications so, the suffering is keeping me awake. I don't want weed but I'd really like something for this pain. I have some heavy pharmaceutical pain killers leftover from my abortion two years ago, but I'm pretty sure that's worse than marijuana, so... having already consulted a doctor and having already tried every other remedy and supplement and tincture, I'm running out of ideas. No, I didn't mention this to my therapist, and yes I probably should, but then she might think I'm just making excuses. I feel like I'm being stabbed with thousands of tiny knives right now. It's very unpleasant. But I'm doing my best to endure it. :(
4:08 a.m. - 2019-12-06