The boy has been leeching off me for days at a time, which I don't mind as much as not being able to do anything because he's always passed out stoned on my couch or behind his phone or my tv, or being loud, or peeing on my toilet seat or farting. Gross! So I asked him today if I could have my house back. His negativity, argumentativeness, and general depression vibe had begun getting to me. I had to ask myself why I'm putting up with it.
So now that he is gone I can get back to my healthy habits again. I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful that I cleaned the couch and washed everything, so everything smells nice again, like MY home. I'm thankful that finally having my apartment to myself today allowed me to work on the pottery project I'd been dying to start. I'm proud of myself for doing something creative with my hands today, even though I was battling the lingering effects of the boy's contagious mood. I palo santo'd the fuck out of my space after he left, haha. Negative energy be gone!
It feels good to have a freshly cleaned toilet, bathtub, sink, counter, and couch, which I can now sit on whenever I feel like it without having to wait for anyone to wake up or get off their ass.
When I'm alone, everything flows easier and I don't feel like I'm stuck in the quicksand of anyone else's addictions or moods.
I'm thankful for having meditated today, and for the short semi nap I took to recharge. And for my kitten who ran to my arms to nap with me. She is cute.
I'm super thankful for the new hemp cotton period panties I have. They are way more functional and practical, financially, environmentally, and comfort-wise, than disposable pads that aren't breathable and cause infections and fill up my trash can. I could have saved a fortune if I'd have gotten on this bandwagon sooner, but I'm so glad I made the switch!
Super thankful for my warm bed, my diary, my nice smelling candles and incense, my freshly watered plants, my freshly done laundry, and my refrigerator full of food.
I vow to myself to not dwell on the boy's problems or make them my own. I vow to myself to be healthy and take excellent care of myself no matter what! I'm thankful that so far I'm doing a really good job of that, without resorting to any unhealthy coping habits at all. Good job, me!
7:01 p.m. - 2020-02-06