I feel beautiful lately, yet no one has seen me. Beautiful just for myself. Maybe it's all this rest and meditation making me feel like my aura is glowing from the inside. Or something. I did an amazing meditation today. Ate well. Read a little.
I guess I could take fancy photos to share on social media, but what for? I'm way too lazy these days.
Didn't hear from Alcoholic 2 after work... but Alcoholic 1 texted and didn't mention anything weird. I still hope they didn't meet or talk but whatever. I don't control the universe. I sorta ghosted the Now Sober Addict. I guess I don't feel like telling him I don't want sex and I'm pretty sure that's all there is to him. I don't feel I owe him anything, so, meh.
And I think I may be a little bit secretly using coronavirus as a polite excuse to avoid people. I love having a valid and socially acceptable reason to introvert! Is that bad? I'm totally enjoying it. Everyone else is stressing out and I'm less stressed than I've ever been because there's no pressure and no social anxiety. It's relaxing! I love people, really I do, but I am so grateful I'm not an extrovert. Hope everyone stays healthy though.
Dude-wise I'm also like, theoretically, they could give me the virus and I could theoretically die. But none of them are worth risking death for. So I'll stay home, thanks.
Night night!
11:17 p.m. - 2020-03-03