I think it's very telling, how I've felt happier in quarantine, than with men. Not that I'm incapable of enjoying them. But this is proving that it's so unnecessary, and in fact, isolating has done wonders for my mental health. I'm fulfilled by platonic love expressed in phone calls and texts. I'm never annoyed anymore. I feel safe, free, rested, calm. My sanctuary is un-invaded and clean. Being alone still feels like a relief, and every day I honestly hope it doesn't end?
My dad's wife reports that her sister and brother-in-law fight every single day in quarantine and her niece cries every day. My friends are all having relationship dramas that I'm so glad I don't have for once! I'm thriving in my own pleasant universe. I'm grateful for everything right now. Everything.
I took the trash to the chute at 6:30 am in goggles and a ski mask made of tights layered over an N95 mask, and weirdly enjoyed the ridiculousness. I'm the star of my own film in my head and it's entertaining. My sense of humor is peaking, as it tends to in times of crisis. It's giving purpose to my existence to make my friends laugh. It's way more fun to read the news in voices and accents, just fyi.
Happy memories:
my hair being washed in a salon that one time when I actually paid someone to get a haircut
Today's affirmation:
I am a self care QUEEN.
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
I swear I will yoga today.
I am grateful for:
my ancestors who were adventurous and adaptable and who are a big source of inspiration lately, and always.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
ever-growing inner power, health, wisdom
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
do yoga and create
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
unstoppable!
8:48 a.m. - 2020-03-25