I keep reading about how people envy friends or instagrammers for having something they don't have, like, a yard, or kids, or a "good" body or whatever. I'm asking myself if I have ever unfollowed anyone in an envious way but I can't think of any time I've done that.
There are people who seem insincere or that I don't feel a connection to. I have a lot of performer and entertainer friends so their content is very much about marketing to sell tickets so they can pay rent. I can't envy a life of hustle. There are also people who I like in person, but their internet persona feels like they take themselves a little bit too seriously, maybe a little self-involved or grandiose. I think they have no idea they're coming across that way and they probably think that's how to promote a business, or maybe they're overcompensating or trying to prove something to someone. But who cares.
I wouldn't say its so annoying that I feel bad about myself or envy them or whatever. I just take note of how their tone presents them and take care to avoid making the same mistakes when I share things.
I guess there's been times when I feel like there's too much self promotion and not enough authentic sharing of who they are beyond their hustle. I'd like to see more of people's mundane every day lives and creative play just for fun, not for business. I think that quarantine has changed that, somewhat, for some people.
Overall though I enjoy taking a peek into a variety of people's lives and thoughts, whether our lives are similar or not. I don't unfollow people with kids just because I don't have them or want them. I think it's endearing, even though I wouldn't want to be them. I'm happy when people I know seem happy. I think that's why it irks me that other people wouldn't feel that way. Who wants their circle to be miserable? How would that in any way be beneficial?
My opinion probably isn't normal though because I'm also the only person who seems to have not felt lonely yet even though I'm quarantining with zero other humans (animals only) and it's probably really annoying to people that I haven't had a breakdown yet. (Don't worry, there's still time.)
It's still extremely strange to me that I don't actually miss socializing. I mean, I love my friends, but I don't feel like I need to see them. I feel very secure that they will be there when this is over. I feel VERY secure that I will continue to be annoyed by men, during and after quarantine, so no worries there either. (Is this what they mean by abundance mindset?)
10:12 p.m. - 2020-05-02