I needed this. Exactly this. A whole bunch of time for just myself, to heal, to find myself again, my true self, without the influence of others.
I am not sure where all this motivation came from but I'm grateful I'm keeping momentum. I just finished a 40 minute yoga workout and meditation video with my favorite teacher. Last year I NEVER would have survived even 15 minutes most days and would have most likely sat around being stoned and depressed instead. WOW this feels so much better. I like, care, and have goals now. I feel my muscles burning and I LIKE it, because I think I can actually keep this up and emerge from quarantine with a stronger and more flexible body than I started with.
I watched an instagram tv video thing by Pussy Riot's Nadya or whatever her name is (I love her so much) in which she gave tips on how to survive quarantine and emerge better than before it, based on what she learned from being in Siberian prison. It was a very good pep talk that stuck in my mind. I will follow that woman to the ends of the earth. My dance teacher too. I feel that both would have been high priestesses in ancient times.
I'm still cooking a lot and eating leftovers every day. It's rewarding actually. I never would have believed I'd enjoy cooking. I am delighting in my own company. I also made sparkly pillow covers for some old pillows and redecorated my space and it looks AMAZING. I have created a tiny heaven for myself here, with my animal babies. I am also tan from my bi-weekly yard sunbathing and herb-stealing visits at my ex's house. I feel healthier than I have ever felt in my entire life. Thanks Covid?
8:56 p.m. - 2020-05-12