The Alcoholic might be homeless in a couple weeks. Which means I will feel obligated to let him live here, for who knows how long, even though I REALLY don't want to, and it will put my health at risk. The other option is to lend him money, which I'm sure I'll resent him for when he fucks up. If we're lucky he'll receive financial help but there's a lot of competition, and of course he ignored my advice to call first thing when they opened, and the line has been busy all day. I feel bad for wishing I went no-contact before quarantine because now I will feel responsible for this man-child, because no one deserves to sleep on the sidewalk. Even dumbasses don't deserve that.
Happy memories:
all i can ever think of is nature
Today's affirmation:
I only need to focus on myself and my actions. I don't need to worry about anything else.
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
judging people who make bad decisions because that's their business not mine
I am grateful for:
the time I have spent wisely recharging, meditating, doing yoga, and eating healthy, so that I am prepared to meet unexpected challenges calmly, like an olympic athlete of mental health who has trained for months.
The person I am becoming will experience more:
play
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
don't assume the worst will happen.
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
gratitude
12:11 p.m. - 2020-05-18