I tried watching DW tv while eating breakfast (peach and cherry baked oatmeal with a cup of saffron coffee) because they have good documentaries sometimes. I decided to see a short segment on paella but the fucking narrator kept pronouncing the double "ll" in paella? The first time he said it I shifted in my seat a little. The second time my skin crawled. The third time a part of me died inside. He kept saying it so horribly wrong, repeatedly, over and over like a toddler who just learned a new word. I just couldn't finish it. Why do so many documentaries mispronounce words about the very things they're supposedly trying to educate us about? Spanish is not an obscure language. It literally takes less than a second to google the pronunciation of the thing your documentary is about. It doesn't require any weird tongue tricks to say "paella" correctly. PIE-YAY-YAH. NOT "pie yela." Seriously? A grown adult man never heard of paella before and now wants to teach me about it while not even knowing how to say it?
I also have this problem with guided meditations. It sucks when I love a meditation practitioner but I can't take them seriously because they pronounce things so wrong. One British speaker (who I love) has a couple meditations about Mayan and Aztec Goddesses, but butchers their pronunciation SO badly that I'm like... She gets paid for this. Did she even try googling? I know Nahuatl names probably aren't common in Europe but it's...really not that difficult to find someone to ask, or consult the internet? Especially if you're going to research someone's religious history? I could leave a comment about it but I don't have the heart to tell her, because I love her other meditations, but I just can't stomach her half-assed cringey pronunciation of Mesoamerican names.
I'm going to start deliberately mispronouncing names in European culture, to cope. I have been pushed over the edge. Some people, when they snap, will buy guns at walmart. I mispronounce Europe. Yeah, don't toy with me!
Happy memories:
All I think of anymore is travel. I'm really lucky to have seen so much of the world, and to have a sharp memory to escape to while confined to one place.
Today's affirmation:
I'm groovy
Today I will focus on shifting my pattern of:
not doing at least 10 mins of yoga. 10 minutes! easy!
I am grateful for:
winning the war on gnats who recently colonized my houseplants. burn it down!
The person I am becoming will experience more:
full acceptance of any and all emotions that may arise
I accomplished:
slept, cooked, cleaned, meditated, journaled, fixed a bunch of little things in my apartment
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
do 10 minutes of yoga goddammit
When I think about who I am becoming I feel:
like I'm doing pretty alright.
8:58 a.m. - 2020-07-04