A couple nights ago he was allegedly attacked in the street, kicked in the face by a couple men who stole his bag and blanket. A witness called an ambulance, he was treated for minor injuries, tested for covid, and released. Obviously I went into protective mode, so he's staying here again, for as long as I can tolerate it. His lip is super swollen and purple on one side and he has some scratches and back pain but he's okay. An adventure a minute this one!
I'll try to refrain from complaining about him, for now, because, annoying as he is, I'm glad he's not dead. But give it a week, by then I'll probably wish he was, lol.
Taking care of someone at least gives me something to do with these long days. I told him if he did the dishes I'll give him a haircut, and he fulfilled his end of the bargain so maybe today I'll give us both hair makeovers. It will probably make us both feel better and then we can escape to nature looking nice, and also on the bright side, I'll have a bodyguard to walk with.
I'm just trying to make the best of it since it seems this is just the way it is. Taking everything a moment at a time and trying to remind myself it's all temporary and trying to accept that things will just be a little inconvenient for a while but the big important things are all okay. We are alive, we have plenty to eat, and we're healthy. As long as I remember that, I can handle all the little things. The basic things are the things to remember now. Remember to eat, to breathe deeply, to sleep, to get fresh air, to try to observe with a light heart and not stay too serious or too heavy for too long.
My mind sometimes doesn't want to stop analyzing everything, morning till night and even in dreams, so I'm trying to let it just BE sometimes, to let my mind just go quiet now and then and be comfortable knowing that life will continue doing its thing with or without my constant analysis, and chances are, I'll survive just fine, possibly even better without always trying to understand every subtle detail, which isn't always necessary. (As I analyze about analyzing... ha ha.)
I have the feeling I need to mentally rest now whenever I can, because the future will certainly bring new challenges, and I need to be strong to face them when they come. I also don't want to allow my brief life to be wasted in letting the world make me miserable. I'd rather feel good whenever I can.
Grateful today for clean air, for a good nights sleep, a clear head, food and shelter, comfort, all the dumb netflix series we escaped reality with yesterday, sunlight, and the nature I am looking forward to seeing again. I also ordered some used books that I'm really looking forward to reading in the bath soon.
11:07 a.m. - 2020-09-26