I finally blocked the guy I casually short term dated pre-covid who just couldn't control his drunk messages, belligerent ego battles out of thin air, and relationship-like demands on me. It felt like harassment and it seems like he's always drunk and/or trying to pick a fight.
Since quite literally anything I say seems to inspire debate in him, I muted him hoping he'd get bored arguing with himself, but his messages kept coming, increasingly hostile in tone. Then he sent a package I never asked for, then he put down my physical appearance for not opening it fast enough, then blamed me for my "low blow" of playing along with his "joke" at my own expense in my failed attempt to diffuse his anger.
He also started messaging me with "You okay?" every week because obviously something is wrong with me for never initiating conversations with a crazy person, and apparently I'm required to check in once a week now too?
So annoying and draining. I always feel a little less okay when he contacts me, so, he's definitely the last person I'd turn to for help if I wasn't okay. I'm tired of him using my inbox to fight with himself, so rather than explain or argue, I just said 'I think I'm gonna delete this app.'
And then blocked him instead. I breathed a deeeep sigh of relief knowing my inbox is no longer a minefield.
I hope that's the end of it and he doesn't just start sending unwanted packages all the time because he has definitely already scared me enough.
Speaking of me being scared enough, I left my apartment only once this month, and it was on that day some crazy crackhead punched my rear window at a stoplight. It's funny because as I was leaving my apartment I said out loud that I felt scared like I'm always in danger, for no reason other than a general uneasiness I have these days. But I'm fine and my car is fine and apparently so is my intuition.
11:11 p.m. - 2020-09-29