I gained 2 inches on my hips and I'm happy about it because my hips are my favorite part of my body. Can't wait to put these hips into some cute clothes and DANCE. With humans.
I'm pretty low energy considering how much caffeine I had today. I was hoping it would make me productive and chipper. I'm a little melancholy just from being so isolated for so long, but it's nothing I can't handle, and honestly I don't think socializing would help much anyway. It's a general malaise about a lot of things, and probably has a lot to do with a lack of sunlight. One sunny day outside is all I really need. One quality conversation and cuddles with an actual person might help too. Fortunately, I'm very patient, and also not afraid of a little melancholy, as long as it remains at a manageable level, like it is now.
I started a new meditation course last night with a favorite instructor. Thankful for that because I was starting to get bored just counting breaths or doing the same guided meditations over and over. She talks about witches and Goddesses and moon phases and stuff, so of course I love her.
Also grateful for the giant bowl of rice, milk, and cinnamon I just ate. And the mocha kombucha I had earlier. Coffee, but healthy for gut microbes! And the bowl of mandarins I've been snacking on. And the glass teapot of rosemary I'll probably make tea out of later but for now am just enjoying the scent of. Some herbs are especially magical for one's mood, and rosemary is one of them. Lemon balm, anise, and saffron as well. I guess anything can be, if you like it.
I've been slightly hard on myself lately for being lazy, for not doing art, and for taking a week off physical activity. I must be kind to myself. I've been listening to my body after all, and body has been wanting to rest. I'll dance/yoga when I feel like it. Maybe tonight or tomorrow. Just need to remember not to overdo it this time. Maybe I'll ease my way into it with some gentle easy feel-good stretches.
I need more plants. I need the vaccine. I need many things. All in time...
4:24 p.m. - 2021-03-02