I was suffering in excruciating pain for the past several days so I didn't journal. I tried remedy after remedy with no relief so I stayed in the fetal position for days. Many epsom salt baths, tinctures, hand held massager, yoga attempts, juices, vegetables, arnica balm, cbd, meditation, naps, edibles and wine later, I finally woke up this morning with a more manageable dull pain rather than a screaming pitch of sustained pain like the last several days. Dull pain I can live with.
I read an article from harvard medical about how men receive pain medication when they ask for it, whereas women are more likely to be prescribed antidepressants for physical symptoms -- and it dawned on me that I had received the same suggestion! But I didn't take the doctor seriously after that because it seemed like I wasn't being listened to, or I thought maybe they got me confused with a different patient, since I never mentioned anything about depression and wasn't depressed. I thought, 'gee, they're really pushing antidepressants on everyone for literally anything these days.' Pharmaceutical companies are businesses who want your money, after all. But now I am realizing it may have had a lot to do with being a woman.
I've known for awhile that worldwide we have inflammation-inducing estrogens in our tap water, soil, plastics, and building materials, from pesticides and pharmaceuticals like birth control. Men are getting breast cancer and women and men are becoming infertile and being born hermaphroditic or with smaller penises and chronic pain in women has skyrocketed at an alarming rate. It'll probably be dead by the time society figures out how to remedy that, so I guess the best I can do is detox every way I can to get rid of this bullshit. Lots of fiber, greens, exercise, and all the herbs that help flush out excess hormone, and boost progesterone.
Just fighting for the absence of pain is a full time job. Being human is enough as it is, but being a woman is really something.
9:54 a.m. - 2021-03-16