Maybe it's too early to be worrying about this, but, I've already agreed to seeing some people post-vaccination who I am actually on the fence about seeing. I feel like I have to budget my risks, and who is worth the risk.
In the top tier there is a cluster of people I DEFINITELY want to see: My dad. The musicians! The artists.
In the second tier are friends who I don't have much in common with, but who I care about.
In the third tier and bottom rung are romantic interests. They make me feel the most guilty and pressure me the most. I'd like to see them, but swapping saliva has really lost its allure for me over the course of this year, unless it's someone responsible who I trust completely, and I have zero romantic interests like that. Maybe they'd be willing to meet my prereqs, but do I want them enough to spend my energy explaining what I want and defending my reasons? It'd be fun and all, and of course sex is wonderful sometimes, but... I'm not going to risk my health for just a weekend romance. And if I get so much as a yeast infection from anyone I swear to god... And all my romantic interests work with the public which makes them riskier. Is it all worth it? Probably not. I have so little to gain and everything to lose.
When I get the vaccine it'll be very hard not to be suckered into saying yes, especially if I'm in a warm and friendly mood and something sounds like fun. I may tell myself it'll be good for me to experience human touch again. I do want to do things outdoors as much as I can. But will I really want to socialize? Will I really want to date?
Maybe there are two or three friends I trust enough to create a social pod. But then will those outside the pod have hurt feelings if they don't make the cut?
I'll end how I began: "Maybe it's too early to be worrying about this."
9:50 p.m. - 2021-03-22