Someone I dated like 4 years ago texted out of nowhere and I wish I hadn't answered because he's asking invasive questions and now I'm having unwanted flashbacks of so many traumas, and I've been trying to quit weed but now I just really want to be put out of my misery.
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I muted him and paused to make passionflower tea with anxiety tinctures, and then told him a lot happened and I don't want to talk about it, a response which it appears he deemed acceptable.
Humans make me such an anxious wreck sometimes.
I just noticed how I tense up my neck when I'm stressed. No wonder I've been having neck pain. I don't know what I need. I'm still meditating every night before bed, but halfheartedly. I've been random about yoga due to pain. And I'm not cooking like I should. I should start with cooking. Healthy input equals healthy output.
In other quarantine news I rearranged some furniture so now I can see outside the window from my art desk. I'd like to make a routine of sitting there and creating in the morning sun.
I finally got rid of almost all of the Alcoholic's things which feels good. Haven't been able to clear him from my mind yet, but we are working on it!
5:43 p.m. - 2021-03-28