Today's affirmation:
I can do anything.
I am grateful for:
-that i made it to june!!!
-inheriting cuttings galore to propagate
-coffee
-cookies
-that I no longer talk to people who gaslight my sexuality, which I've come to accept is on the asexual spectrum. People take it as a rejection when it's not, or pressure me into sex when I say no, or think i'm lying and argue with me as if I don't know my damn self at nearly age 41. (At what age do people start BELIEVING women's experiences?) It's not that I never like sex. It's just the lowest on my priorities compared to everything else. I like to cuddle and have meaningful friendships in which sex isn't the primary motivation okay. I recognize sex can be fun and healthy, but sex isn't enough for me and I don't base relationships around it. Although there was a time in my life where I suffered through fuckboys SOLELY for the physical contact and "friendship" that I got out of it. And I'm really glad pandemic gave me space from that for long enough to discover that I feel so much better without needing to pretend I enjoy sex as much as everyone else seems to. I've truly experimented and tried it all with many men and several women, and my conclusion is that sex is alright, but given the choice I find other activities more stimulating. They say don't knock it till you try it. Well, I tried REALLY hard, and a lot. I'm just not a very horny individual. So what. We can still be friends, right?
The person I am becoming will experience more:
nature
I have an opportunity to be my future self today when I:
practice acceptance and gratitude.
11:17 a.m. - 2021-06-02