Hiked two and a half miles yesterday and explored a new town that isn't far away but felt like a different universe. Everyone in this town seemed so happy. People are rich there, but they live like middle class. Most people are hippies and/or surfers. A live band was playing and lots of locals were walking or skateboarding with surfboards.
(Made me wish my mom would have kept her promise to teach me how. She was very good. Surfer culture always felt like such a foreign thing to me, even though my mom grew up in it. But surfers do seem nice, even if it's not a world I belong to. Riding waves is really cool if I think about it like a dance with mother nature. It actually looks really fun. Maybe I should try it. Just because my mom never taught me, doesn't mean I can't find another teacher and learn. What if it's in my dna? Maybe it's an unlocked potential.)
The weather was perfect. Everyone was smiling and friendly and murals and signs all had such positive messages like "May This Virus Be Our Teacher" and "Goodness Exists" and peace signs carved into the park benches and Black Lives Matter painted across an old victorian house restaurant. People had porches with rocking chairs (furniture outside! no thieves?) and the most beautiful magical gardens. I wouldn't mind living there, but its probably outside my price range unless I live in a tiny house or something. Might be worth it!
Meanwhile, back here in the worst neighborhood in my city, I had two coffees and I'm still tired. I think I should move, but, but... What a headache, all the work, all the documents... And what if the new location is no better? What if I miss this place or what if I have shitty neighbors? (I have good neighbors here and the walls are super thick, and I never need to worry about anyone breaking in because my building is so secure.)
I don't know. I'm going to take a nap. Today I'm grateful for hikes and hugs and for exploring new sights. And untapped potential I have yet to discover about myself. And for my mom, wherever she is, I hope she's well.
1:38 p.m. - 2021-06-20