I was invited to goth night. This guy has been trying to see me for two whole years and still hasn't given up even though I haven't answered his calls since 2020. He's a manwhore from the highest delta risk zip code and an essential worker who probably has other diseases he'd like to give me and a handful of other women. I told him I'm not fully vaccinated and that I don't go out anymore. (Indoors anyway.)
I might go masked to an outdoor party my friend is doing next week, since they're a conscientious bunch and the music will be good. Might be one of my last chances to do something like that for awhile. I want to go for the ambiance and social element but I don't know if I'll feel like dancing. I haven't danced in a group in so long. Do I even remember how? I'm sure I will if I drink, but should I?
I made my sanctuary so beautiful that I love being home surrounded by my favorite things and all my moody colorful lights and plants and pets and comforts. I love it here. I love the peace and safety and I've learned to love saying no. To all except my intelligent music and art friends, who bring me so much joy.
9:29 p.m. - 2021-07-26