I'm becoming nervous that this site is going to expire and disappear. I can't figure out how to make myself show up again under "users online" nor "recently updated." I disabled it awhile back out of privacy concerns, but I am presently not worried, and lately I want to interact more with humans here, because humans here are rather smart and self aware thinking types. I love storytellers. I love words. I love people who love words.
Pretty sure I scared off my entire two and a half readers with grief rambles and excessive complaining about men. (I MISS YOU, COME BACK! SORRY FOR BEING A CRANKY BITCH! I'M NICE IRL, I SWEAR!)
And the elusive gold membership... Zero links work. Man, I hope Andrew is okay. (That's his name, right?)
I suppose I could try starting a brand new diaryland diary and see if that does anything. I think it won't.
It feels like so many things are ending at once. What we need are new BEGINNINGS.
I could just write in one of my too-many notebooks. But where's the fun in that? This is my message in a bottle thrown out to sea. It's not the best, but it's raw and real, and filled with secrets no one knows. My life is maybe fairly exciting. Death, sex, intrigue, drama, rage posts, juicy gossip, it's all funneled quietly into this place. It's like a horrible reality show, but for people who are actually literate.
The only place I'm social media-ish right now is my meditation app. But I disabled friend requests, so it's just the same three people sending stock messages like 'Thanks for meditating with me!' I don't interact but it's nice. There is a nice woman in Spain who sends me encouraging messages almost compulsively, and I totally don't mind. I don't know her, but I like her. It's comforting to think someone on another continent cares enough about me, a total stranger, to encourage my meditation habit.
If you can read this, kindly leave a note just to confirm my diary isn't hidden. Or, if you've figured out how to pay for membership recently, send a clue so I can get that working. Thank you in advance!
6:39 p.m. - 2022-11-20