Remotely, via separate oculus headsets, I gave N a tour of my first travels circa 1999, the first time I went abroad. I remember every detail of that life changing trip, so I was able to give a thorough historical tour of notable sights, peppered with memories of being 19 and seeing the world for the first time. Visiting each place on the itinerary reminded me of all the ways I felt then.
"It's the 90s and I'm on the eiffel tower overlooking Paris, so life is very good! My friend Jake asks why I've become silent. I am pausing to be present and take a mental picture of this moment in time, because it's the 90s and I'm running out of film."
"This is Chopin's grave at Pere Lachaise. My friend lives across the street from the cemetery."
"This is Pompeii. There's fucking chariot lines in the roads! There's beautiful frescoes perfectly preserved. This is my girl Isis's Temple. Look at the ancient curbs. Just like ours! Imagine everyone walking down the street in togas."
"This is Florence. I love this statue called "Abduction of a Sabine Woman." It looks so incredible if you circle around it, almost like it's moving, like a dance. I was obsessed with it. It might be the reason I decided to major in Art History."
It's fun to play tour guide on oculus with someone. It's also nice to be able to "travel" without being catcalled or followed or stared down by men, and with no risk of long covid. I have enough of an imagination that it indulges my explorative urges for now, for far cheaper than a vacation. It's basically just google earth in 3d but I adore it.
I had a series of dreams of being seduced by older lesbians. Then dreams about improvised vocal harmonizing. I also dreamed a police car flew through my dance teacher's apartment and the police were nonchalant about it. And I dreamed that Moodswing had lovely gold and blue evil-eyes around her diary, or an etsy selling them, or something. I don't remember exactly. I just remember thinking, 'ooh pretty,' at the thin gold painted lines. I can't remember if they were watercolor or actual glass evil-eyes. I woke up shortly thereafter.
10:14 p.m. - 2023-01-24