I. Grateful for this diary.
II. Grateful for the pretty rainbows across my floor in the sunlight.
III. Grateful for the roof over my head.
IV. Grateful to be alive.
V. Grateful for my morning coffee.
VI. Grateful for saffron and lions mane.
VII. Grateful for my red and black nail polish. I hadn't painted my nails in forever. It looks cute.
VIII. Grateful that I meditated three times yesterday!
IX. Grateful for good health.
X. Grateful for my tall ceiling.
XI. Grateful for every friend and lover I've ever known.
XII. Grateful I remember roman numerals.
XIII. Grateful for learning, the ability to learn, my love of learning, books, teachers, libraries, etc.
XIV. Grateful for my rare black frankincense and moroccan rose resin incense.
XV. Grateful that someone cared enough to teach me to type fast when I was a kid. That turned out useful!
I dreamed I was dating a new boy from my hometown but all I could think about was R. Grief sucks balls but I'm doing well. I've been extra kind to myself and am doing all the right things. I feel healthy and optimistic. I'm trying not to take things personally, remembering all the times I had less self control than I do at this age. Trying to extend patience and hold space for others while they kick and scream at the growing pains of life. I'm so grateful I'm not in my 30s anymore, but I'm grateful for the lessons learned. It was definitely a time of intensive experiential social learning. And phew, I'm glad it's over! :D I can't keep up that pace anymore now without social lubricant. So I'm retiring early. It's so wonderfully quiet and peaceful lately. I love it. I can think clearly. I breathe deeply. All is well.
- 2023-02-12