Contacted M's sister who lives in a different country, explained his substance abuse and told her to call him, because those were definitely track marks. He'll be mad I tattled, but it could save his life. Now taking the rest of the week off to tend to my damn self (and hope this charming lying addict didn't give me any diseases.)
New earplugs worked and I slept well. Woke with a migraine but it's better now. Made myself my homemade oat blend with pepitas, mangos, and fresh blueberries, a coffee, and now an earl gray which I never drink.
Fuck, I forgot how nice earl gray is. Perfumy, a hint bitter. Good for a rainy day.
My goodness the rain looks beautiful, creating a haze between buildings, softening the edges, making everything look dreamy. What a lovely filter.
Bought myself a weighted lavender eye pillow to wear during meditation. The cat is well-behaved today. The Neverending Storm continues but I don't mind. I like slow quiet contemplative days.
My brain is empty. I feel calm. The troubles of yesterday have been resolved, so today I can mentally relax. I didn't have any weed last night so I guess I'm taking a break. It wasn't intentional, I just forgot, but it's a good moment to pause, or quit entirely.
Nothing more to report. Sending you love and contentment, wherever and whoever you are.
Z.
- 2023-03-28