The clouds are drifting slowly and peacefully in the partially blue sky. A rodent is sleeping in my neck-scarf-pocket. My jaguar nagual (cat) is sleeping peacefully beside me.
I have too many tabs open about the mesoamerican calendrical system and mythology -- my latest obsession, which I won't bore you with, because I'm yakking about it to everyone else and I'd just be repeating myself here. It excites me. I'll drone on about that later.
I spent the stormy days and nights "traveling" in vr to every pyramid and cave, reading every description as I wandered around the map, learning and re-learning history, revisiting sacred sites I visited with my family years ago. My nana's favorite pyramid, it turns out, was dedicated to the underworld. My head is in the misty jungles of learning, so I am presently happy and full of wonder and dreams. Learning is my primary addiction.
Everything has come full circle and reached a point of equilibrium. I haven't had weed in several days so my mind is sharp and clear. It's that nice time of the month when I'm flooded with estrogen too.
I'm praying M won't become homeless again. He's having all kinds of problems, but that's just his journey. I have avoided seeing him, but we talk. I care and offer support from a distance. Everyone else seems to have given up on him, so I feel like I'm his last remaining lifeline.
The other day a very strange thing happened. I was talking with N on the phone... and I hear an annoying series of beeps from his end and complained if he could turn that shit off because it's hurting my ears. "What beeping?" he said. He swears nothing was beeping. About a minute later I heard the same noise again. This time he heard it too and said it was his washing machine. I told him that's the same sound I heard moments before. He said that's impossible, it only beeps once, and doesn't repeat... He said I must have been hearing the future....
Maybe there's a rational explanation but I'm not surprised anymore by anything. I'm crazy or psychic, or both. But I keep joking with him to call the manufacturer about his faulty washing machine that beeps in the future. I think it's hilarious.
- 2023-03-31