1. Age 0-18 when I could safely frolic outdoors in nature, had lots of pets, extracurricular hobbies, supportive grandparents and teachers, and solid friendships.
2. Age 30, after meeting many new women friends, taking classes with only women, and having a no-boys-allowed rule on my household. :) There was a lot of alcohol involved in socializing, but among women I felt very safe, respected, and supported, and had so much fun.
3. The first half of 2020, when I was 100% hermit, very healthy, and extremely sober. The most functional and stable I've ever felt in my entire life. I read books, did yoga and gratitude lists every day, meditated every night, and actually enjoyed cooking.
In between each of these happy periods were regrettable relationships with men. They always start out fun, but I stay longer than I should, leave traumatized, and regret the time I lost.
So I need to:
1. avoid straight men
2. be surrounded by women friends, or be a hermit
That doesn't sound impossible.
tuesday - 2023-06-20