(I'm baby.)
Between M getting fired on his first day and drunk calling me, and then N spiraling all day unmedicated on top of that, I now feel like I was hit by two trains.
They were both hyper chaotic and kept wanting to talk to me and I really just wanted to be left alone. I told M I'm sick, even though I'm not, just to get him off my back, because the truth didn't work.
I napped, and dragged myself to a support group meeting, even though I was too exhausted to talk today. It was nice to be surrounded by self awareness and chill vibes. They were great, as always. I also took a salt bath and worked on music.
Tomorrow I'll be wiser and increase fortifications of healthy boundaries by putting the phone on airplane mode.
Maybe I'll bake a special treat for myself.
sunday - 2024-01-14