N was admonished for "making multiple people uncomfortable" in support groups, and M was fired on his first day.
I guess this validates my experiences with them, so I can stop gaslighting myself now. I always wonder if I'm just not being patient or understanding enough. But this reassures me it's not just me. I suggested support groups because I thought it'd help. He has two therapists now, and started an ssri. I hope something clicks.
I've been semi sick. Covid tests negative. I've been so careful. It might just be stress, dry heat, allergies... I hope that's all it is. (I edited out worst case scenario illnesses for now, to avoid anxiety.)
I'm still stretching, eating healthy, meditating, all of which helps. January isn't my favorite, but I'm grateful for rain which keeps flatulent motorcycles away so I at least have some peace. I take frequent mental vacations into books, history, science, philosophy, music, dreams, salt baths and naps. I'm trying to be very good to myself. My plants are beginning to perk back up ever so slightly, a hopeful sign that spring warmth is just around the bend.
saturday - 2024-01-20