Spring.

I went on my rooftop a few times this week. I have falcons!

Somehow I'm much quicker at playing harp by ear than when I was a kid on piano. I can easily improvise along with any song I never heard before -- I didn't know I could do that?! People are surprised. Was I a harpist in a past life?

They're also surprised by my painting. I get a kick out of people's reactions. People treat me like a fool until they see my art, then I'm suddenly the Virgin Mary. Maybe it's time to be an artist again.

I danced a little, hula hooped on my bungee trampoline, did a flip on my circus rings, stretched on my yoga wheel.

Grateful a few friends texted nice things, and I was invited to a birthday. The last birthday I attended felt strange and resulted in mass disease, so I might sit this one out, but I'm glad for the invitation, and the "miss you." Miss you more.

Also had sex and cuddles for the first time since november. I'd have preferred if the week wasn't punctuated by him drinking and lying about it, but at least all the days prior were good and he was very helpful and fun company. I guess being alone is still the more attractive option.

Maybe dishonesty is just a normal allistic trait along with accusations of witchcraft and stalking and racism and other weird meltdowns that I'm too dumb to understand the value of. I'm tired of needing to block out-of-control adults every few months. It's depressing when interactions with grown adults feels like trying to explain calculus to feral toddlers.

Every peer-reviewed study found post-covid brains have reduced grey matter. Psychopathy is associated with decreased grey matter. Lack of empathy is tied to less grey matter. People with narcissistic personality disorder have less grey matter. Alcohol reduces grey matter. Social media reduces grey matter. The less grey matter, the lower one's IQ.

Exercise, reading and meditation increase grey matter. Mushrooms increase grey matter. Cures are widely available and free. You can lead a horse to water...

If anyone needs me I'll be in my bathtub reading and meditating on mushrooms while the horses dehydrate. Because I'm a witch. <3

10:46 a.m. - 2023-03-25