everyone's suffering and its pretty not fun to be around. its like theres nowhere to hide. some handle themselves better than others. but even they're bummed out. i console and console and we're all just passing around consolations constantly.
i took mushrooms and lit incense and candles and made some art but the alcoholic wanted to let me know how he hates everyone and everything so that kind of put a damper on my evening. its like all the men are losing it at the same time...and coming to me about it.
so i have a few date options this weekend. there's a guy i sorta like, although sexually not sure. and a girl who seems like a possibility i guess. and a guy i feel comfortable ish with but don't really want sex with either. and like 3 other dudes who are kinda in line but i'm not interested in any of them either.
i don't really like anyone sexually for awhile now to be honest, but some i could probably get myself in the mood if i really tried...
some of them are not totally terrible. not awesome but not terrible.
so, its a little dull that the one i seem to love the most is a cat. she's pretty great though. maybe someday i'll meet someone as cool as my cat.
3:15 a.m. - 2018-05-17