Just watched The Wisdom Of Trauma. (It's free at the link until tomorrow if anyone sees this.) Excellent man and excellent film! Covers all the bases, with compassion and empathy. Watch it!
Today I'm grateful for my health, the sunlight beaming through my windows, and the majority of friends who have behaved responsibly and conscientiously throughout pandemic to save lives. Good people out there.
I do know one person who transformed into a paranoid anti-masker anti-vaxxer. I keep her posts muted because she reblogs crazy things all day long, but yesterday my boundaries fell and I peeked, and really wished I hadn't seen her childish rant against masks in corporate stores (where people are paid minimum wage to risk their health to serve her ungrateful ass.) Her insanity disturbed me and subsequently I had nightmares all night.
It's funny because, I only read her stories sometimes because I don't want to hurt her feelings if she reads mine. I feel obligated to return the favor and make her feel seen. But in aiming to protect her feelings, I hurt my own.
It's also funny because just the day before I was telling H how much I worry about people, including her specifically (and her elderly mother!), because yes she's very stupid, but that doesn't mean I want her to die!
Maybe she lacks compassion -- or maybe she's just gullible and easily manipulated by misinformation online. Maybe I make excuses for people. Either way. It's hard to watch someone value themselves so little, let alone the lives of others around them. I think she already got covid, judging by the looks of her IQ these days. :(
My other friend has long covid for over a year now and is no longer able to do anything like she used to. She is in physical therapy and tries every day not to lose hope that one day she'll be able to move her body for 15 minutes without her chest freezing up. She doesn't look so great these days. Her eyes have dark deep circles and she looks like a zombie. Not at all like the healthy vibrant person I once knew.
Life requires so much continual forgiveness and acceptance.
12:42 p.m. - 2021-07-31