today i noticed a way i've grown a LOT. (yay progress.)
i've become more tolerant, more live and let live, more understanding, more patient, more empathetic to desires that differ from my own or that i may not understand first hand.
i intentionally worked on this starting almost three years ago, first with friends. (lovers too, but i'm still working the kinks out there, though i've improved for the most part.) at that time i'd have more reactive emotional responses to anything i didn't like, without really allowing the other person to have whatever it was they needed just because I didn't like it. and i was pretty good at getting my way, too.
fast forward. i now am a much more tolerant person. where i used to call a family member at any hour i felt like it because i wanted to, now i wait until i know it's an hour convenient for their schedule. i also used to be very anxious about being left alone by a partner, and even fair excuses made me panic inside. now i declare a need for space if i sense it will help, and when a partner walks away, i let them, in an understanding and patient tone. these inner changes alone have stabilized my life on a larger scale and improved my quality of life. look at me, i got mature. i'm proud of me.
12:29 p.m. - 2015-10-26