DEAR. DIARY. I've been reflecting about the changes in my friend. And realized I've been writing off and excusing her behavior for a while. Her mother lost custody of her as a child, due to schizophrenia. Her mom wanders in the streets, her foster mom committed suicide before her college graduation, and she claims she only cried a day, even though she seems to have liked her. She's never been empathetic and has always been easily irritable and overly self-important to the point of delusional. She's probably the most emotionless female I've ever known, other than her tendency to be constantly searching for things that annoy or anger her, and responding with verbal violence. I do feel that I've sensed moments where she expressed healthy feelings toward humans, but so very rarely. She of course seemed to like me enough to spend wads of time with me. Probably because I'm one of few people who are accommodating about eccentricities, because there's just something special about crazy people. lol. But she was after all, an artist, and artists are interesting people, full of fascinating quirks, right? That could be true, but it could also be possible that she either inherited the 50/50 chance of schizophrenia, or has narcissistic personality disorder, or is straight-up sociopath. I don't know if I should talk to her about it in the hopes she gets help, or if I should just look out for myself and drop contact. Also, there's sirens and I'm really wishing I was in the forest instead of the city. I had some nice news too but I'm starting to get sleepy. Goodnight lover. <3
11:49 p.m. - 2018-01-26