Happy Persian New Year!!!
Tonight was a huge improvement. I think I just need to go out more and socialize with humans. Other people appreciate me way more than the dick I've been wasting my time with. (Just being real.) I went on a date with an African gentleman tonight and he held doors open for me and didn't pressure me into sex and treated me like a human being and we had fantastic conversation. It was good. I wouldn't mind another date with him. :) But even if not, I think it's a great idea for me to just go out more because I think I need people and it seems like I make people happy too! Everyone said the nicest things to me and about me and AGH! WHY do I torture myself needlessly by staying alone and torturing myself dwelling on the one person who is too dumb to care about me. Dunno but it was refreshing to be treated nice for a change! Wow what a difference from the nonsense I've been tolerating for no reason. Ok, I guess I'm ready to date now! Good god. Why have I been wasting so much time on someone who treats me bad?! I was treated soooo much better tonight, by absolutely every person I encountered. Intelligent conversation was ON POINT. We met interesting people and had new experiences and I learned a million new things and received so many compliments about my intelligence, my communication skills, my everything! I ate it up! YES YES YES. More nights like this! Never let me settle again. I'd much prefer to have positive experiences that fulfill and nourish me, like tonight was. Never ever again will I settle. NEVER.
3:25 a.m. - 2018-03-14