What if people enter your life at specific times when you need them. And when they exit it is because you have grown and completed a stage.
I do believe energies are shared and exchanged beyond words and part of this is scientific although I mean it a more philosophical or even spiritual sense. And in some moments its incredible how a person can save you, or you save them, because maybe you're both experiencing similar feelings and everything lines up at the same moment.
The person who is supposed to care isn't currently caring, but given how much I've changed and grown apart from him this makes sense. We are no longer parallel in our goals, ourselves, anything.
But other people just seem to appear just at the most necessary times. Like the girl who was there the night I was drugged. If she hadn't been there, might I have ended up in the car with two strange men waiting for me outside? And today, in the midst of an inner battle of misery, she unexpectedly texted, and while I didn't mention my struggles beyond the loud construction outside, she offered to kill them for me, and asked if I wanted to do something today. <3 And that small bit of support was all I needed to put the wine down and make myself breakfast.
I need so little love to thrive. And I need humans, but I need good ones. But I need to have faith that when those I love become cruel or distant or busy or leave or die, that someone else will always be there, always, at least one person will be enough on the same path to understand each other and get through it like bridges for each other onto the next challenge. And magically we always find each other. It's downright mystical.
For example, isn't it so odd how every woman I'm good friends with had the same experience of being raised by a mother with severe mental illness? Yet none of us knew that about each other until long after the friendships were cemented. How did we know? How did we sense that similar experience without knowing? My psychologist friend recently told me this exact phenomenon happens to her, and I too think its strange and incredible.
Life, you are weird.
12:13 p.m. - 2018-05-24