I went to the forest alone to heal (trees are so good) and stayed in an old victorian with a jacuzzi bathtub.
Both people apologized to me while I was off-grid and I got some quiet alone time to think about how I want the next chapter of my life to be.
Change is scary and there's probably things I'll miss, but it's time to take that leap of faith. Moving is one change that can start a whole series of new experiences, new people, new habits... And I'll be safer.
It's such a big decision! So it's probably going to take awhile to get everything in motion. But change will come!
I'm trying to fuss less about other people and bring the focus back to myself, since I'm the only person I have control over.
I'm also reminding myself of lessons I learned from traveling. Things will always go wrong. You have to just roll with it and continue on because there's always a new experience around the corner.
I randomly dreamed I met Madonna and she was kinda old with white hair but still glamorous and reminded me of my crazy (and favorite) aunt. She sat down at my table, and in my dream I was just thinking how much I love women who live their life the way they want and don't care what society thinks. I'm not really a Madonna fan but she represents certain qualities... In my dream she was nice but it also seemed like she wanted to be somewhat left alone in peace, which is a reflection of my need for attention (she's Madonna) and my desire for solitude. She wasn't young rebel diva Madonna, she was the older Madonna seeking a quiet table alone, so I guess that's kinda my inner vibe right now. :D
10:16 a.m. - 2019-08-16