I told myself that when she died I would travel or leave the country or move and get a dog. This seems like a good opportunity but my mood is pretty low. On the other hand, a change of scenery might help with that. But also, I really just want to adopt a kitten and start the bonding process all over again and maybe I'll connect as deeply as before and maybe not.
I feel like the future is waiting for me to make a change but I don't know what I need to do or where I should be. Where I'm at is okay, but maybe not ideal at meeting some of my needs. I probably need to try even harder at avoiding men like its my full time job. Then maybe I can carve out a little sanctuary somewhere quieter and kinder.
I could just hang out somewhere else for a while and if I like it I could stay longer, or something. It's probably a great time for a vacation. But where?
I don't see the point of just staying here being sad. Either I get a new cat and get comfortable here, or I take off on some adventure. I don't want any other outcome.
I'm absolutely itching for a major change. But moving is a whole lot of work. Hmmm.
9:19 a.m. - 2019-09-10