Why do I feel like the previous entry is just foreshadowing for pain or disappointment or rejection of some kind?
I keep wanting to reconnect with the idiot fuckboy who blocked me for not responding to him (fast enough). It's pretty weird. I keep thinking like, yeah, I could just go to that place he'll be at tomorrow. And I'm pretty sure he'd drop everything to take me home. Could be fun, just one night..
But why would I want that? Am I THAT unsatisfied? If my mind is wandering toward that guy, then something is definitely wrong. He's my plan C. Let's hope I change my plan C by tomorrow to MYSELF. I'm pretty lazy anyway. I'll probably just chill at home, like all the other unsatisfied women in the world.
8:45 p.m. - 2019-11-07