Existing every day alone in a box gets kinda repetitive after awhile. But at least no one is drunk or yelling at me. Or inviting me to do things and suddenly changing their mind while I'm driving there. And I don't have to fulfill anyone's sexual demands that leave me unfulfilled. Or protect anyone's egos. Or be talked over. Or have to defend my values constantly. I can control when I want silence and when I want music and I can enjoy any music I like. I can watch whatever I like and eat whatever I like. I don't get laughed at by people who are too stoned to understand me. I don't have to teach anyone about all the things they didn't research themselves. (This gratitude list has a bit of a passive aggressive tone doesn't it?)
Okay I think I can do better here. Let's try this again.
I am grateful for the autonomy I enjoy during times of solitude. Period.
I am grateful that I've had the time to organize my music playlist and clean my surroundings and take care of my plants and animals and myself. It's really, really nice having a place that is clean and quiet so I can relax.
I am grateful to have a full cup of peppermint and lemon balm tea here to limit my caffeine intake today.
I am grateful for the color red. Just because. It's a pretty color.
I am grateful for my kitten's eyes and soft toes and affection. My animals are the best.
I am grateful that better weather is on its way.
1:30 p.m. - 2020-02-11